its so nice out. why aren’t you around id rather you be here than hanging out with him. then you could see this winter sky unfold, the stars shine so much brighter when its this cold, but your not home. i’m sorry, i should’ve been there more. i was scared, tired, and lonely but from what i hear is that you’re doing well without me. so i’ll just sink from lack of progress and deny myself to feel anything at all. and lately i’ve been so alone in the company of others that there’s no point in going out anymore. i’ll just stay at home. i wish i showed that i loved you more. why can’t i wake up? its so nice out. why arent you around? the stars shine so much brighter when its this cold.